alright already!!!!!!!! slap, slap, thump, kick and one knuckle sandwich for the road (haha)
first off everyone who responded thank you for caring enough to spend your time to send me a wake up call.
i will conquer this self destructive behavior one day at a time one meal at a time.
i will get back on my wagon and ride into the wild wild west with a positive goal in mind.
i do have a support group i attend once a week its for survivors of molestation. i know theres a connection with food and the pain of being molested i guess thats something i will definetly keep addressing.
i cryed when i read your responses all of them touched a dark and lonely place that i dont want to be in anymore and quite frankly dont have to be in anymore.
i have a question i would know if i hurt myself right? if the band slipped or area was blocked i would not be able to hold down food and i would probably be in pain right?
thank you for your honesty (it hurt but it was honest) and i feel better because of that.