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  • Birthday 06/01/1967

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  1. alright already!!!!!!!! slap, slap, thump, kick and one knuckle sandwich for the road (haha) first off everyone who responded thank you for caring enough to spend your time to send me a wake up call. i will conquer this self destructive behavior one day at a time one meal at a time. i will get back on my wagon and ride into the wild wild west with a positive goal in mind. i do have a support group i attend once a week its for survivors of molestation. i know theres a connection with food and the pain of being molested i guess thats something i will definetly keep addressing. i cryed when i read your responses all of them touched a dark and lonely place that i dont want to be in anymore and quite frankly dont have to be in anymore. i have a question i would know if i hurt myself right? if the band slipped or area was blocked i would not be able to hold down food and i would probably be in pain right? thank you for your honesty (it hurt but it was honest) and i feel better because of that.
  2. ok this is my first time putting myself out there. i was banded sept 19 with stormy and her her husband (wonderful people). i have logged in this forum many times and read so many happy stories a couple of stories that have some bumps in the road but will soon be victorious(im sure) and some worry stories like julies story about her fill nightmare. so i have cheered and thougbt and hoped with alot of your stories you just dont know it (im not a stalker) (haha). it hasnt been 3 weeks yet since ive been banded, im continuously screwing up. when i got back to the hotel the day after surgery i had small slice of pizza. it took forever to eat it i chewed 500 times each bite. i dont think i prepared for how hungry i was gonna be. i assuming everything went down ok because im fine. i eat soups like im suppose to but ill eat the carrots and sometimes potatoes in the soup or have a small slice of bread with my soup. ive eaten slower now than in my whole life and thats good i feel full faster and i try to stop then sometimes i dont ill eat a couple bites more. because of that im worried (i should be) i dont feel the restrictions from the band. is that normal so soon . or because i challenged the laws of nature im eating the restrictions away. i know its probably more mental than physical (not probably, i know). im 5'8 i weighed in at 320. i dont own a scale (probably scared to buy one). i know ive lost some (ifeel it). but is it enough. god what am i doing to myself? im sorry i did not mean to write a novel. please someone respond! destined to stay fat
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