Hi All,
I have come here again looking for some fellowship with my fellow bandmates. I am a little bummed out because I went to the doctor and found out that I have gained back more weight than I thought. The funny part is that I never weighed myself while I was losing weight after my first fill. I knew the weight was coming off, it was not difficult, so I wasn't focused on the scale. So I am at the doctor this week and he shows me a graph of my weight in the last year. I was actually down to 176 last year and didn't know it. I average 180-185 on any given day now and I have maintained it for a year (or so I thought!!)
Anyway, bummed because I did give 10 pounds back last year. Since the first fill, it has been a chase to get the right fill amount in. My last fill is not doing much for me - at 3.2. I think I tend to go a lot longer without getting a fill than most people. I try not to think about it too much or I become completely obsessed and bummed that I am not making more progress.
And then I start reading the forum and it hits me - duh!!! Go get another fill. Seriosuly, you think I would get it by now. I have to keep reminding myself that, when my fill was working at the end of 2007, the weight fell off. I was eating good things, but portion control was easy. Withouth the proper restriction, I am back to stressing out over every meal and I can't lose weight that way. Maybe it's a personal thing, but the more I think about what I am eating, the crazier I get.
It is also good to see the few people here that were banded more than a year ago. I know many of them have hit their goals and moved on, but there are some of us that are taking the long road.
Still grateful for the band. I know it's the only thing that keeps me at this weight. WIthout it, I would be back where I started.
I'll have to wait for payday to go back to OCC for the fill, but at least I have a plan :-)
LS