Vannie4

I have research and thought about this surgery ( sleeve) for a year now. I have the money and the time to finally do the surgery. I should be overwhelmingly over joyed right... Not so much! I've become so frightened, no matter how many YouTube videos I watch the fear is over powering me. Fear of failure, fear of losing my security blanket called "fat" , my relationship with food is a big one, and fear of change. My heart hurts. I know I should be happy but I'm terrified. This is all making me see the negative hold that food has had on me for over20 years. Please help.