Having surgery in January, I hope...

[hvnbnd4]

:-h Well, I knew my insurance. BCBS OF ILL would not be willing to pay for this...and I am not willing to wait 2 more years. My dear Uncle is letting me take a cash advance on my trust fund to pay. He should be sending the checks in a week or so. Now, that I know, I am like so excieted. I finally have given into the fact that I need this to survive. I am 5'10 and just around 300lbs now, and I am almost 48. My goal is to beable to run with my sons in a 5k before I am 50. The thing I am now experiancing is the fact of loss, the feeling of loosing my best friend, even tho now, I am loathing food. I look at it like a drug that I can not control. But, even when I gave up those drugs, I cried, even tho I hated doing them. It was comfortable, and easy to use as an excuse. Like food is. How will I never have bread again, or my pastas? I know that in AA it is a one day at a time, and I will have to live like that again. The very thought of maybe living a lot longer, and seeing my grandkids one day, thrills me. I would do it tomorrow if I could. I would like to go to sleep and wake up in the recovery room. The days just drag now. I do enjoy every bite now. Knowing that diet soda is coming to an end, soon, along with the pies, cakes, and cookies.. My birthday is Dec 16th, I am going to have a nice, big, Red Lobster dinner (sorry guys), and cake. I am going to be here for awhile so get used to me..lol..talk soon..Geri in Beebe, AR

[susantunanoodle]

Hey I hear ya! I have a short list of food friends I'm saying goodbye to, one at a time. I love Outback Steakhouse and I will miss the filet (for now). Also a certain local pizza, and my Chinese food. Oh what will I do without my Gen. Tso's???? (wailing away loudly). ( (

But I tell myself it'all to the good in the end.

One day, will I be able to eat those foods again (except pizzaa) if I go slooooow and chew loooong?

[julie66t]

Hi, I know how you feel. I'm already missing the diet pepsi and steak adn Thai food and Mexican food etc..................I'm scheduled for Jan 3rd and have to start the two week pre op diet soon. This will bring back my days of AA also. It's all good.............Julie

[John R]

Why did BCBS give you such a long waiting time. I have BCBS and I am scedualed for Jan, 8th. I have othre factors but I do hope they do not deny me at the last moment. What was their explanation for a long wait?

John