So I thought I would blog about my experience with gastric plication because before the surgery I had a hard time finding someone with circumstances similar to mine. What makes my situation unique is that I was over weight and obese "clinically" however in terms of what most people consider overweight needing surgery I probably wouldn't have made the list. But I certainly did make the "fat" list in my own mind and I was more sick of hating myself and weight, and felt so defeated with my efforts. So at 5'3" and 175 lbs I had a really hard time finding anyone on-line in youtube blogs or otherwise that I could compare myself to. I qualified for placation surgery because my BMI was 30, just the minimum. When I was doing my research on the surgery I decided to book the surgery because there is a strong history of diabetes in my family, I had dieted and worked out for a solid 6 months and dropped a lousy 20 lbs, and as soon as I stopped the unmanageable work-out routine I piled all the 20 lbs back on and because I have a job in PR and whether I like it or not people are always judging you on your appearance and it does effect my bottom line. So prior to my surgery these are the things that I told myself to convince myself that I was making the right decision. My husband on the other hand, wanted to hear nothing of this procedure business. He was adamant from the get-go that I didn't need the surgery my weight problem was more of a confidence problem that was in my head and he was adamant that I looked good, not to mention the surgery came with a $7500 price tag and a flight to Mexico. He was almost most furious when he heard that it was in Mexico. I did my research, I'd been to Mexico many times before and wasn't so fearful of having the surgery there, I was pretty confident that the Doctors were more than qualified. So I booked my surgery. Because my BMI was low I didn't have to do the pre-surgery diet, all I had to do was liquids 48 hours before surgery. I went to Mexico alone, I wouldn't do that part again. I felt really lonely, that was a very hard low time for me. I don't deal with pain well, and following the surgery I was nauseous from the anesthetic, I just wouldn't wish to repeat that experience alone again.
The week following surgery I thought I'd go right back to work, but I ended up taking about 3 days off to sleep and recoup because it was harder then I was expecting it to be. The first 3 weeks after the surgery was so devastated, I couldn't really eat anything, and I was thinking what the hell did I do to myself? I hadn't lost but 10 lbs no one had noticed and I was miserable, I was down on myself too because I felt like "how did I ever let myself hate my body and weight enough that I went to that extreme", I think if it had been something I could have reversed at that time I would have.
Now I will post a lot more about specifics since the surgery but I will say this, I no longer feel that way at all. I'm almost 5 months post-op and I've lost 30 lbs so far, my goal is to get down to 120lbs, I'm at 140lb so I have another 20 lbs to go, but I'm over the moon.
Specific things I am happiest about:
-My sex life is much better, I'm so much more confident, I'm no longer embarrassed about being naked in front of my husband
-I went into Victoria Secret last week and asked the sales associate to help me reach a large night gown and she looked at me and said "For you? No way your a medium or small" That felt so damn good, that's never happened to me before!
- I feel for the first time in my life like I have control, in the past I felt in control of everything but my weight and now I feel complete
I will blog more about my experience since surgery, in the meantime if you have any questions or want to know anything specifically please message me, thanks for reading