I decided to tell my husband about wanting to pursue lap band surgery last night. Needless to say it did not go well. Mostly because he feels that it is #1 a waste of money, and #2 a cop-out of sorts. But, in all honesty, I knew he would have that reaction so I cannot even say that I am surprised. I guess I was hoping that he would say "Sureeeee! Let's book the appointment today!" Wishful thinking I know. I can't expect him to know how it feels to have a weight problem because after all, he's looked perfect his entire life so he knows nothing different. Sometimes I wish I could snap my fingers and put 50 extra pounds on him so he could feel what it is like to carry the extra weight.
I have been dealing with weight issues for 15 years now and I am at the point where I am ready to make the change. I am tired of it ALWAYS being an issue in my head and dominating my life. I just want to wake up one day and not think about my FAT. Is that too much to ask for? Is that selfish? I do not think so. Then my husband has the nerve to compare me wanting to spend $7K for lap band to him wanting to buy a pleassure car???? WTF???? How do you compare a neccessity (health) to a luxury item (car)?
Today we talked about it again and after I asked him not to discuss it with anyone he tells me that he called his friend who is a doctor to ask about nutrition. The gesture was nice but he does not get it. I know about nutrition, I know what I am SUPPOSE to eat, I just don't. At least not consistently. He thinks that we can start a crusade to loose the fat! It sounds great but this is what I have been trying to do for 15 years! Now he sees how serious I am in terms of getting surgery that now he wants me to try his way. How many times have I done that in the past and failed? I am tired of failing, DIETS DON"T WORK! I am ready for this lifestyle change and so help me GOD I am going to do it.