Hmmm, never had a BLOG before...this should be neat, a not-so-private journal...
Well, I am going to be faxing in my paperwork today, I guess that makes this WLS idea a little more real. I still haven't come to terms that I'm actually doing this. It's still so far-fetched to me that I will actually be flying into San Diego, California, be driven into Mexico and have surgery in 3 weeks. Seems like I have SO many questions to be answered, but everytime I get a chance to ask the question, I go blank.
Am I crazy for wanting this so bad? I literally giggled for 10 minutes when I got the email back for which date was mine. My husband was actually getting a little frustrated because I couldn't stop giggling to tell him what was going on. I was giddy, like a little kid that knew a big secret and was supposed to hide it from everyone. I was snickering, crying and laughing all at the same time. I dont think I can be anymore excited about this!
My nervousness is something entirely different though. I scared because I'm going at this alone. I really have no one around me to talk about it with, besides my husband, who, without a doubt is behind me 110%, but I just feel like my only focus right now is on this surgery. Every conversation, every topic, everyday. I've done everything I can to calm myself and convince myself, that I've made a good decision, with a reputable doctor. But it's so hard to fully grasp that, when your only idea of your doctor is what you've watched on YouTube or read on forums.
Hopefully I am ready for this. Hopefully I will learn to have willpower and be stronger than the food sitting in front of me. Thats my goal, to overpower the food for once instead of it winning the battle over me.