Lisa33

In June 2005 I was banded at 388lbs. They slowly tighten the band, and by willpower I got down to 367lbs by the end of 2005. Since then I have gained weight. I told the physician that I was still able to eat (8oz steak dinner with all the trimmings), while yes I should not be eating that, I did. I felt like I was never full, had massive hunger pains. He had me up to 9.7 in a 10 band. He had me drink that liquid and reconfirmed that the band was in excellent shape, and that the stomach pouch was small. He even said to me that there is no way I could be eating that much food. I never got that band as a silver bullet, but in reality I have trouble with portion control and binging (not purging), so thougth this would be a good tool. So for a year most of 2006 I slowly gained/loss, and was too embrassed to see the doctor again. He left the practice so I decided to suck in my gut and go see the PA, he took me up to 10.7 (he said you can go past the 10). I was excited, but I still see no difference - I can eat bread, I never throw up. So sadly, I am so depressed, and cannot get up the courage to "diet" again, I feel like an absolute failure AGAIN - something that has worked so well for others, is not working for me. The depression doesn't help me control my eating, I am staying right around the 390's. So does anyone have any advice. I went to the Obesity Inst thinking that was the best there was. I am devasted that I went to all this trouble and have this thing in me that does nothing. Any suggestions would be much appreciated, and I thought if anyone understood it would be you out there. I certainly have ran into a brick wall with my dr, as he won't give me a fill and try to push it a bit more. Lisa