Thank you all so much, I will ask about the partial anesthesia, I didn't know it existed as such!
I feel the port all the time when I touch it or when I am rolling around in bed to get comfy, I have to lie a certain way or it feels like i am lying on a tenisball.
You know ladies I am so scared, I am depressed and mostly I think it is all about the scar.. I exavuated myself. I think it is because I dont want another scar but then again as you said above... its not likely ill be a bikini babe again (sadly) and another great point was that a lady was much more comfy after it was fixed.
I will go tomorrow morning and ask a lot of questions and see how I feel and in the end no one can make me do it hey. At least ill get my questions answered eitherway... I am so scared I wish you girls where in Melbourne!