Here it is, today marks 1 week until surgery. I faxed in a a copy of the certified check today and after I hit send I thought to myself "What the h#ll am I doing!?!" All my savings... POOF gone, for what?? So then I go into panic mode, call my boyfriend who tells me to make up my d*mn mind and decide what I want. I know this is what I want but the lengths I have taken to get here are unreal. I have fibbed to my boss about why I will be gone and I haven't told my lead anything. I am afraid the timing is bad as the company I am contracted out with is hiring in all the IT teams including mine and if I'm not here and they decide to interview us... I could come back to some helpdesk person sitting in my seat b/c I wasn't here to defend my territory! It is to late to cancel surgery and I already almost had to reschedule due to some work crap but I made it through that. I am incredibly stressed right now and all I want to do is curl up on the couch with my bud's Ben and Jerry and wish it all away But I can't even do that!
Anyone else go through anything similar before surgery?
Miriam
Mimi,
I can understand and identify with how you are feeling. In three and a half weeks I will be joining you on the quest for a healthier life. You are not alone in feeling the preoperative anxiety. My belief is all of us who make this step are ultimately increasing our lifespan as well as giving ourselves a gift many others would love to be able to do but are powerless to participate in the process for many of the reasons you are feeling. What we are doing is empowering ourselves and what others may think is in reality of no consequence. You would not have come this far if you were not committed to follow-through. I am not just talking to you when I say this but to myself also.
My best friend is a person I trust completely and his mother had the Gastric-Bypass done in Georgia here in the U.S.. Like a couple other forum members I have told many what my plans are for surgery in Mexico as well as a description of the Lapband procedure. This has been an ongoing discussion between he and I a couple weeks back he put me on the phone with his mom so I could ask her questions concerning her procedure. This was before I had let the cat out of the bag about my own plans. Well last week I gave him a call and filled him in. He freaked out a bit.
I think I'm going to die
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Mimi,
I can understand and identify with how you are feeling. In three and a half weeks I will be joining you on the quest for a healthier life. You are not alone in feeling the preoperative anxiety. My belief is all of us who make this step are ultimately increasing our lifespan as well as giving ourselves a gift many others would love to be able to do but are powerless to participate in the process for many of the reasons you are feeling. What we are doing is empowering ourselves and what others may think is in reality of no consequence. You would not have come this far if you were not committed to follow-through. I am not just talking to you when I say this but to myself also.
My best friend is a person I trust completely and his mother had the Gastric-Bypass done in Georgia here in the U.S.. Like a couple other forum members I have told many what my plans are for surgery in Mexico as well as a description of the Lapband procedure. This has been an ongoing discussion between he and I a couple weeks back he put me on the phone with his mom so I could ask her questions concerning her procedure. This was before I had let the cat out of the bag about my own plans. Well last week I gave him a call and filled him in. He freaked out a bit.