lilbitmiller

I have never blogged before and not sure what "blogging" really is. I have struggled my whole life with food and being a closet eater. I hid food consumption from my parents, friends and lovers. I tipped the scales at 330lbs by the age of 25. It may sound funny to say this, but if you have seen the movie, you may just understand the significance of it. In the Austin Powers file, Fat Bastard quotes 'I can't stop eating. I eat because I'm unhappy, and I'm unhappy because I eat. It's a vicious cycle.' I banded in March 2009. I started at 299lbs in January and following the strict pre-op diet, I was 282lbs on my surgery date. Since then, I have had on fill of 2.7cc and am now 235lbs. Lucky for me, I have a strong family support that keeps me on track with my meals and excersize. What they do not know is that when they are not looking I fall back into old habits and sneak. My sneaking is not having a negative effect as it is not causing any weight gain. However, I know that it is not right and I feel guilty after the fact. I don't know how to stop doing it. Does anyone have any tips, thoughts, suggestions on how to curb this? I have been sucessful with my weight loss, over 60lbs, even with the sneaking. I know that I could be farther along though if I wasn't sneaking. Please help me. I am at a loss and don't know what to do.

Name and Location: Lisa, Riverbank, CA Age: 32 Height 5'6" Band date: March 2,2009 Pre op diet weight: 299 Surgery wieght: 282 Currant weight: 243 Goal weight: 180 I had my first fill (2.8cc) on 7/18/09 and hope to reach my goal wieght without another fill. Wish me luck!