Poor thing, how we beat ourselves up, myself included! Look at your success overall instead of day to day (Janet, listen to your own advice!!!!) Your first fill will help, but we still need the desire, and if you've gone this far you DO have it! We are human, and emotions can get to us, time of month, too much salt...look at where you were, and never feel ashamed to talk to the group-I promise, we have ALL been there!
Keep positive and keep talking!
Janet