As I am struggling 12 days post surgery- (I'm a little dense I guess, I finally went and bought some protein shakes today because I am tired of feeling weak and defeated...so we'll see how things look in a couple of days) ...I have to reflect...I had no idea food was such a big part of my life. Talk about absence making the heart grow fonder! I always ate and never thought...now I have to think and it's alot of work! Having the willpower to stay away from food...woooow....what a challenge! I think if I can get through another 9 days of this, I will have conquered a huge giant in my life, mentally...they say it takes 28 days to break a habit...maybe I should continue NO SOLIDS for 28 days and see how I do??? I am tired though...my bones are achy just typing this and my eyes sooooo want to close and take a break, even breathing seems like too much work.
I appreciate the recipes, the advice...but I think I need SHOCK THERAPY or something like that...to make me STAY AWAY from all of this temptation. I just read somwhere that chocolate is liquid by the time it gets to your band...argggghhhhhh!!!!
I'm having a really hard time at home, my husband has gone from pouting to the silent treatment to now just being a total passive aggresive jerk like refusing to eat soups that I make for dinner and going to bed hungry in protest, refusing to help around the house and even giving the kids the cold shoulder just so they will act needier and I will be even more exhausted. It's really HARD to do this alone!!! I don't know what his problem is but it's really getting on my last nerve and I can't even stand to be around him right now, I mean, I slept in the other room last night because I was infuriated at his crappy attitude. I am exhausted and just can't deal...I have to work, care for the kids, fix the meals, do the laundry, shop, clean, and still entertain...I know I just have to hang on a few more weeks...thank God I am going on vacation ALONE in 3 weeks and will get to unwind AND eat...and just relax and feel normal again...I have to look forward to that and believe that I am closer than I think to being thin.
PLEASE SOMEONE SEND ENERGY AND STRENGTH... I am praying for God to get me through but I have alot of guilt that God isn't going to answer me when it comes to this problem...??? Don't ask...
It's 1pm and I want to sleep but I am making coffee instead.