Well from the kind and encouraging words of fellow members..I pursued the financing even further and got APPROVED, but only for half. So I have gotten back on the road to happiness, I just think it's going to be a slightly longer trip than originally expected.
So at this point...I will be saving and scrounging for every cent until I have the remaining half plus airfare. In fact, tomorrow morning, bright and early I will be having a yard sale. At this point I would literally sell my bedroom set and sleep on an air mattress for a year. (though I doubt my husband would go for it)
So now that October is not in sight for surgery...my goal is December...I really want 2011 to be a different year for me. More and better opportunites and a happier, healthier me.
Okay...I thank everyone for their kind words and thoughtful prayers. Maybe this dream can become reality..just not getting my hopes up too soon...I learned that lesson the first time. I'm taking it nice and easy this time.