I wish there was an easier way to do this...everyday is a different mix of emotions. It's so nerve-racking. One day is an 'UP' day...then the next I'm 'DOWN' in the dumps.

Today is a downer day. I'm in such a BLAH mood. Applyed at another loan agency yesterday...didn't hear back from them

LAME!

I just feel like I'm wasting my time...like what if I used all the money and got a personal trainer and ate right.

But then I remember, that if I actually went through all that and lost the weight, that, the day the trainer was done, I'd eat a whole buffet and gain all the weight back, so I snap myself back into knowing that I need the band. And the vicious cycle starts again...

I just need to learn how to play Blackjack...then I could head to the casinos and win it big! Haha...yea....right

Ok, Sry for being such a Negative Nancy...I'm going to bed.

Maybe I will wake up on the right side of the bed tomorrow!