I have put off this post because my failure was very hard for me to get over. Dr Jimenez cancelled my August 9th surgery because I could not quit smoking. I didn't stop crying for many hours. My feelings of disappointment and humiliation and failure were overwhelming.
Dr Jimenez gave me a perscription for Chantrix and rescheduled for the 25th. I am so grateful for that medicine. Everything I had tried wasn't working but this medicine works. It doesn't get rid of the want, but it blocks all feelings of need or craving. The rest is just behavioral changes. I only hope I do not gain back the 11.5lbs I lost during preop. I am already back up 2.5lbs.
Anyway, thanks for the support. Hopefully I will beat this addiction and get banded on the 25th.