Jump to content

EricaG

Members
  • Posts

    382
  • Joined

  • Last visited

  • Days Won

    8

Blog Entries posted by EricaG

  1. EricaG
    so last week i started to swim i look terrible in my bright red bathing suit but i don't really care. i don't mind looking bad for a couple of months if this is gonna get me back into a pretty little bikini. so, since i started swimming only 2 days and eating well.. i lost 2 lbs! come on! it doesn't get better than that. i actually enjoy swimming so im going to be doing it for as long as i can. hate running so swimming laps is my best friend. my first day i swam for about half an hour only because i didn't have any gogles. but the second time i stayed for one hour! im really excited and happy to just get back on track and start seeing the results i need to see.
  2. EricaG
    see the problem with me is that i've dealt with alot of bad situations growing up. i'm a only girl in a family of 6. i have 3 brothers that are not really focused too much on their appearance and being petite like i have. i was always "thick" im 5'1 and all through high school i was about 145-155lbs and that was OK. i had a little pouch but i loved my curves.. then after highschool, my friends and i organized a trip to hawaii.. that's when all my unhealthy eating habits began. i would literally not eat all day friday to look good in my dress on saturday. i lost about 30 lbs and i looked great... i only looked good. but my health was taking a toll. i started to get sick every two weeks and would get light headed. i'd smoke to avoid eating i'd drink so much it was ridiculous, i even tried drugs a couple of times...i hated myself then... i love my fat self now. LOL. to be honest, i was so dumb an naive...i was slowly killing myself. i even went into a depression because of all the stupid choices i was making. my wakeup call was when i was about to jump into the shower and i fainted, home alone and locked door... with the water running. i thought to myself, "im going to die naked!" it's funny to me now but it really turned everything around for me. i started eating and spent more time with my family. we cooked our mexican "comfort foods" daily and that really helped me with my depression.. i snapped out of it but i was 40 lbs heavier, then 60, then 80... then i just got really lazy.. i watched tv all the time and ate... but now i've made a better decision.. after this procedure i know i am worth alot more...i'm worth the money and the time... i know i have over come so much crap and i already know how great i can look, except this time around im going to do it the healthy way... and it's a life style change, to look great in my own skin and feel great as a human being, not like the failure i felt before... here i come.
    this promise is to me... and that's it.
    Erica
  3. EricaG
    Is it weird that it just dawned on me that I will NEVER again know what it's like to stuff my face to the point of no return? I grew up with 3 big brothers and a carnivore dad, and a mother that cooked to please our terrible eating habits. I don't blame my mother for our bad food choices because she always made sure we had our greens and veggies and never took us to fastfood places. I think we influenced her.. All the buffets we took her to, the easy $1 buck burger. I think now with me being banded she's re-learning that we all need to eat better. She's a very traditional Mexican cook. But I've introduced her to edemame, okra, ortichoke... Well a bunch of yummy foods you wouldn't really find in a Mexican pantry or freezer/fridge.. And I hope that now with my new found love for healthy foods I can inspire my family to follow in my foot steps. I'm not saying I don't slip up and have a bite of something greasy, but just the fact that I know I will never feel the overstuffed feeling from all the greasy food is the best gift I could've ever gave myself.
    Now if only I can stop myself from ordering regular
    meals and letting other eat the rest :/
×
×
  • Create New...