I admit I'm petrified. I haven't told my family yet (and may not ever, lol) and I'll be going alone. I've had surgeries before, even putting foreign objects in (leg surgery several years ago) but in the back of my head I keep thinking "Why can't you do this YOURSELF?!!". But I know I can't or I would have already. I've been yo-yo'ing with my weight all my life which I've heard is worse that being overweight for a long period of time. My doctor keeps telling me I'm healthy, but with 200 pounds on a 5'0" body, I know it's a only a matter of time. We don't have any history of diabetes in my family, but everyone who's died naturally has done so as a result of heart attack, albeit in their 80's.
I'm just tired of not being full - ever I can remember my mother using those Ayds (sp) chewies that were supposed to help you lose weight in the early 70's. I tried them. Problem was, I'd eat them literally like candy! I even remember eating chewable vitamins on Saturday mornings because it was the only food I could reach. I was 4 at the time. How I didn't OD on something is beyond me
Personally, I know in my heart I'm doing the right thing for ME. As long as YOU feel that way, at least most of the time, you're good to go It also might not hurt to see a therapist and see if there's something else "eating" at you.