jena Posted August 13, 2008 Report Share Posted August 13, 2008 I haven't written in a while. Truth is, I just don't have a lot to say lately. I've been having a rough summer. Got laid off the end of June, started a new consulting position that I absolutely despise. I've been upset and angry about my situation and everything was ripe for a pity party binge. I had made pasta for dinner - one of my old, best binge foods for dinner and there was lots left. When I went in the kitchen to feed the cats, I shoved in a couple of mouthfuls. Then I shoved in a couple of more. Then my eyes bulged out of my head and I got a tightness in my chest and the last bite I took didn't get any farther than the back of my throat. There was no where for it to go. What did I do? I put another bite in my mouth. Old habits die hard. While I was chewing and chewing (I realized I couldn't swallow it) I thought how stupid I'm being. I spit out what was in my mouth and started walking around trying to get the lump in my chest to go away. Then I realized that this is my band doing its job. I could have eaten enough pasta for 4 or 5 people. Strike that. I WOULD have eated all of the pasta and then anything else I could find. Yes, it's there helping me on a day to day basis, but what it did for me tonight is priceless. Oh, you're probably wondering what I did instead of binge. I sat down and wrote this and I feel so much better. Thank all of you for being here. That's priceless too. Jena Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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