I was the exact same way, and even was having the feeling of "well since this isn't working either I was just giving up" I had my surgery at 189 got down to 178, and during the month of my first fill went back up to 185. I was so mad, disappointed, ashamed, depressed, you name it I was there. I got my fill 7/4/08 lost 1.5 within 3 days and have not weighed myself since then, because my scale broke. I am thinking that was a sign of some sort, not to weigh right now. isn't that stupid how we all think? But get your fill. I am even scheduled for a 2nd fill 8/16/08 and I think that is going to do it for me. Don't give up, your body is still adjusting. You can do it. Look how well you have been doing without a first fill! You are doing great!! :lb4: :lb18: