Shana-Lee,
I understand your feelings. I feel like I've been so depressed the past two weeks. I keep telling myself that it is because I'm sick, but I know that it's more than that. I'm having surgery on December 4. I'm leaving at 4 o'clock in the morning on December 3 to drive myself 1 - 1.5 hours to an airport in a different state. I'm making the trip on my own. And, flying back to drive myself home. I'm 33. Not married, but have the most adorable little puppy in the world. I have only shared my surgery decision with three people; two of my sisters and my supervisor at work. And, let me tell you... I am the youngest of 8 children --- I have a lot of family. I guess it is normal. For me, I have always been a "big girl." I have always felt left out. And, I guess it is scary going to a place that will accept me for who I am. And, I feel like I'm fitting in here at the forum. I've been judged all of my life. It's scary venturing out into the unknown. But the bottom line is, you need to do what is best for you. And, for your health. This forum has been a wealth of information for me.
Kristy