I'm sorry your having such a difficult time....but remember you are NOT alone....We all suffer from the addiction of Food or we wouldn't need the band...Everyday when I get up it is going through my head, what can I eat today for lunch, then after lunch, what can I eat for supper....It's a never ending cycle...I just try to follow my guide lines set by my doctor as for as my band goes....When I eat what I call real food(my favorites) I make sure to eat on a saucer, or if it is fast food, Like McDonalds for instance is my favorite cheeseburgers, so I will order me a cheeseburger and take the bread off and eat the rest...Its little things like that, that make a big difference....Don't be so hard on yourself...to us eating is a habit and an addiction, then on top of that we have to have it to survive....so just take it one day at a time.... have you tried talking to a dietician? I'm trying to find one near me, just so I can get some tips on healthier eating! The band is our Tool to a better us and a better life for us and our family...Just when you feel like overeating think of what you have sacraficed for the band and that will also help get your mind on track....Cheer up!! It's going to get better.....I hope this is a little comfort for you! Your Banded Friend, Misty >