Change your focus, hun.   Go do something.  Go for a walk, go to the mall, weed the garden, call a friend, anything.   You are fixating and it's going to drive you insane.  We've all been there or we all will be there.   You survived 19 days on liquid remember?!!  You are a superstar! 
How about chromium to get you through?  The pills are tiny and they help with appetite control.    Is that allowed? 
I don't know how to help you except give you a big hug and tell you to be STRONG! 
HUG!!!!!!!!!!!! :lb18: