Hi Trudy,
What everyone has said is true. Don't be hard on yourself. Look how long it took you to gain all this weight. Until you a mentally prepared and thinking positive, is when you will go forward from here. I am doing that just now as I will have my suregery this coming Thursday!!! I've been overweight for over 20 years and Iknow it is not good for me healthwise. So, I am planning a 'new me' with a healthier lifestyle...changes that I know that will benefit me in the long run. It's ok to indulge A LITTLE...but don't overdo. Julie also say to drink more water. This is a good thing. I warm up my water because my stomach thinks it's "soup"...and then I start to get full.
My son, daughter in law, her sister, and grandson all got banded over 2 months ago and they are doing great! Son lost 48, daughter in law lost 53, her sister, 43, and grandson lost 62! Because they still do the shakes for breakfast and lunch and do regular foods for dinner. They still cut up their foods real tiny and chew like crazy! LOL...well, I am going to try their way and see what happens.
Like Cathy says too, every person's body is different...you just need to stick with your restrictions, portion control, AND BE HAPPY! Negative feelings means gaining weight...BUT, Positive thoughts and motivations goes a real long way.
MOST IMPORTANT - READ THE POSTS on this forum. It is amazingly helpful and I am gaining soooo much tips for everyone here. Sorry to go on...but I know what you are feeling and I am hoping what we all said helps...
Enjoy your day Trudy!!
Jude