There is a back story, like everything seems to have. I am not going into it right now. This is more for me than for anyone who reads this so please excuse me if I don't focus on the story up till now. I just don't have it in me. I've made the decison to put my cat down. My husband will take him to the vet tomorrow. I will have Doc B runs some tests on him, that are only going to cost me money. I know in my heart there is nothing wrong with him other than his personality. Which by the wa
Well this week has been a real challenge......it's "employee appriciation week" at work and WOW! Muffins, Cookies, Klondic Bars, Sandwiches, ect ect....Food Food Food Food. Plus I am having a visitor, so that makes me want sweets. Horrible time of the month to have will power! UGH!
I pretty much feel like this....
I don't need much along the lines of temptation when it come to food......give me a break....I dive in head first.....
This will be my ongoing list. My list of what I will not miss.
Worry of health issues springing up. Diabetic, high blood pressure, high cholesterol.
Not rocking the "Granny Panties" anymore
Not being able to cross my legs at the knee without a hoist up.
Tieing my shoes laces to the side.
Being a 40 DD.
Getting winded when active.
Shopping in the "PLUS" size section.
Not receiving compliments.
Seeing my "area" when shaving!
Not having the sexy feeling.
Seeing my spare tire around
Hello everyone. I have recently stumbled on a great weightloss community on you tube. It is pretty cool. I like being able to see everyone. People really lay it on the line there, and I enjoy the truth being spoke. One of my favorite channels is "ProofWLSWorks." That channel has a new youtuber for each day of the week. Each week they have a topic they all share on. The speakers have all had weightloss surgery of one type of another, so you can see the topic from different perspectives.
Today is my Wedding Anniversary! Jim, and I have been married for 2 years! Time has a way of passing when you’re in love!
I feel so blessed that my husband is supportive of this life changing choice. The more I learn the more I get to share with him. Knowledge is power baby!
We talked this morning, while getting ready for work. I used the toilet for a chair, while he shaved, romantic huh! We are going to work toward a "Goal" month for the lap band. So! We decided on June! I am happ
Walker Tracker Challenge.
I joined a walker tracker challenge. For the most part, I needed to get some accountability for myself; To push myself to do something. I’d joined a gym, and it seemed to cause my husband some stress and unhappiness. I was very surprised by his reaction, and I realize it is not the healthiest of reactions to have to your spouse wanting to do something positive. That being said, *clears throat* I am not the picture of healthy living myself. I have PLENTY of “issues
So, I am a pretty open person. Shortly after my decision to have the lab-band I decided to share with my close family and friends what I was doing. I knew that it would open myself up to comments, questions, and all that fun stuff that goes along with mentioning 1. surgery in a back alley butcher shop.... a.k.a. Mexico. 2. having weight loss surgery. God forbid I get off my large butt, excersise, and eat right like the rest of the normal skinny world. That being said, let's not forget to me
Talk about a ruff vacation. The best part of it was spent with my hubby and son in the hotel on the way to visit the folks. We relaxed, swam, and enjoyed each others company. There was no major tension or arguments. No battles of will to make the holiday a uncomfortable mess.
At 33 years of age, one would think I would be beyond my "pleasing" stage in life. I still find myself doing things for others that end up putting me in a bad way. Why, because I want to spare them the dissapoint
Okay so I've learned my bowels have changed since having surgery. I went throught the adjustment period of "hard poop" where I was not getting enough of what I needed to have a good BM. I added benefiber to my morning coffee and it seems to have done the trick. I do poop alot less volumn wise as well.
See, I told you from the get go....this subject contains entirely to much information. Holy Crap! Literally, I had a BM this morning and was amazed at how much came out! I hadn't gone for
This is a subject of a more serious nature. It has to do with my emotions, or lack of emotion on a subject. My mother’s best friend Edna has stage 4 lung cancer, and is going to be passing on. I feel numb, with out emotion at all toward this subject. Growing up, our family was very close to theirs. She was like a second mom to me. Having little or no emotion causes me to feel bad and closed off from her.
My dear mom is very upset, and is having difficulty dealing with the change in life
A few word before I get started ranting about what's new. I want to say thank you to each of you who reads my randomness. I love getting your messages, questions and thoughts. It feels good to get to know you and I really appeciate you taking the time to comment.
To any guy who reads this, you may as well stop now if women speak bugs you. I will be sharing about being tight with a fill; but the reason why it's a women thing! You have been forewarned.
So, I am having my monthly cycl
Well the cake I baked on Sunday is about ready for the trash, and there is 1/2 a cake left! Woot! I haven't had to throw away cake for well, I can't even remember how long.
Sweet success!
I love the changes the band has made in my life this far!
I am beside myself this morning. Let me tell you, when I stepped on the scale, it had gone down a tinny bit more 241.8. This is amazing to me! I am assuming the fill I had is really doing its job?! Seems like I am dropping weight pretty fast, more so than I thought I would. Not that I am complaining, it is surprising to me. The foods I am eating are the same as before. In the beginning my weight loss was S-L-O-W or non existent. I was pro-active about getting fills. Each month, I went
Okay, so I canceled my fill apt yesterday morning. YESTERDAY!!! I swear, it was like my band opened up! Give me a break! Ugh! Here I was thinking I've reached a decent level of restriction, and the day I cancel it's like I can eat more and not feel full. Is this a joke!?
Alright, now that I have that out of my system, I will say, I am looking forward to my apt tomorrow. I canceled my fill and decided to make an apt with a nurse to get my vitamin levels checked, weigh in, and basically to
The number on the scale was 243.6 this morning! The liquid phase did jump start my weight loss. I am noticing that this fill has really made an impact.
Adjusting to the fill - Yesterday was a difficult day for eating. I had a non breaded filet of fish for lunch with some salad. Ended up PBing, I was able to continue eating with out incident. For supper, my husband wanted Chinese. My son and I shared, and we ordered 1 pt of combination low main and an egg roll. It was not the best choic
Since it is not in me to change anyone other than myself, I am setting off on yet another journey. I am hoping to transform myself into an even more beautiful person. I am beautiful, and need some refining work done. A little plastic surgery if you will to fix a spot or three!
My co-worker, who I have been allowing to drain the life force out of me, shared some great news with me today. She is staying here and will not be moving. Our relationship is one that has caused me some pain and dis
Okay here is the run down. I was the first one to have surgery on Friday 4/24/09! (Which was awesome!) I was in by 10 and back in my room by 10:30. Walking by 11ish. I decided to stay at the Marriott with my mom, and was back at the hotel by 4 ish. Had no gas pains. None! I don't know if this has anything to do with the price of rice, but I took Beano gas drops as I was leaving or room before surgery and took gas-x strips the day of my surgery. Like I said, I don't know if that had anything to d
Yesterday I scheduled the appointment for the lapband! It's set for April 24th, 2009.
I feel like it's falling into place, and at times I feel myself pushing for it. I know that when the time is right it will happen and this is not something to rush. Easy does it Angie! Easy does it. A decision has been mad, this is progress. There is light at the end of the tunnel! I am a controller and a planner by nature. I often have to practice self restraint when the urge comes to push or force
I tired on a pair of jeans today, they have been calling to me from my closet. Size 20! I am nearly there! They are 5 lbs away from looking fabulous! My tummy did a small spare tire. I don't want to look stuffed into my jeans when I set down, so back in the closet they went!
Spend some time looking in my closet. I have 2 pairs of size 26's. One brand new never worn, jean capri's, and the other slacks worn after I had my son to go to a wedding. They will find a good home I am sure. Righ
Self esteem – Feels so good! Looking better….oh, wait…..a compliment! I am at the 40 lbs lost mark. (happy dance) A co-worker said she could see I was loosing weight. YES! Love it! That makes 4 people I work with who have noticed a change! Thank heavens, I was starting to wonder if people were blind!! It is amazing how you can loose weight and no one will comment. It feels good to see and feel the changes I have with my own body, and yet when someone else notices it it’s like icing on to
I scheduled another fill apt for December. I have really been on the fence.
Do I need a fill….? Up until now I haven't had this hard of a time making up my mind.
What the biggest sticking point is the amount of food/portion wise and being MENTALLY satisfied with a smaller and smaller portion of food. For example, yesterday I ate around the band. I had gyro meat for lunch with sauce. I had around 1/3 of the meat when I felt satisfied. So, I stopped, but mentally I was not satisfied.
So I wasn't thinking I was going to drop anymore weight. (especially since the night eater in me struck again last night)
I was pleasantly suprised when I saw 250! Yay! I have been really being conscious about haw many grams of protein I am eating. The bandster diet is one I am still working on. I've had some constipation, or hard poop. So I like to have oatmeal in the mornings. Seems hard to get the protein in and have any room left for fruits or veggies.
The other night I made a skil
I am in the pre-op diet phase. Yippie, that means soon I will be getting my band. Lately there have been a few posts on the forum about the pain newly banded people are in. It leaves me hoping I took off enough time for recovery. From everything I have read, I should be okay. I am hopeful I will be the "bounce back kid." I really hope that I can manage my pain well, as I have a son to come home to and care for.
The pre-op diet is going pretty good. I have very good success while I am a
Let's talk about poop. Being the mom of a baby or toddler has brought a new subject to my conversation. Poop!
The first phase of the liquid diet I noticed my bowel movements to be "loose." Then I would go a day inbetween movement. Which felt stange. I have been a once a day pooper for a long while, sometimes twice. I know TMI but I have found lots of bandsters are superised at the lack of poo. I was! The first good poo came the second week of the liquid diet. I was pleasantly suprise
Holly Crap! I went on a eat-a-thon this weekend. I had touched 252.2 and then food hit the fan and I ate all day Sat and Sun like I had nothing to stop me. WOW!
I am not going to beat myself up over it, I am moving on. The scale was back at 254.4 this morning.
Weekends are harder for me because they are less structured. During the week I feel great......I do great.....
Oh, my parents are coming up over labor day. I am already having urges to hid food, so if I need to eat I can eat i
